What Happened to the Back of My Eyelids?

I have an internal alarm clock that has super powers. I never use an alarm because I am an early riser. If I need to be up for any reason I just tell myself what time and then wake up about thirty minutes before that. While this super hero power of mine is cool (because the noise the alarm makes causes me to turn into the villain in any comic book) I sometimes wish I could sleep in on a Sunday. This "gift" even works for others. My future brother-in-law mentioned being up by 5:30 when we were visiting them in Seattle so I woke up at Texas 5:30 AND Seattle 5:30.
Lately, I have not been sleeping well. I go to sleep easily and then wake up about 2:00 or 3:00. makes for long days and early bedtimes as I require about 8 hours of sleep. I won't take anything prescription. I very often do not do well with the side effects. My friend, Kelly, gave me some vitamins that have calcium and other things that relax muscles and help her to sleep well. I took all three doses yesterday in the attempt to sleep better. They don't smell like prenatal vitamins. This is good. I can't do it if they do because I wretched them for months while pregnant with my oldest daughter! All of this brought me hope and fond thoughts of sleeping in till at least 8:00 this morning!
I did not wake up at 2:00 or 3:00. I did wake up at 5:00. I know I should be very glad that I slept much more soundly than I have in the last months or so but I am pouting like our dog, Sophie, when she thinks we should give her attention and we don't do it! Her face is pitiful sad and her eyes say how mistreated she is for lack of attention! If she could shed a tear I know she would in a heartbeat!
Laying awake I decided to stay in bed as a way of rebellion to sleeplessness. I rebelled until about 7:30. I could no longer take it as my eyes hurt from trying to keep them shut! So...I am now awake and drinking my much beloved coffee.
I have decided to continue to take the vitamins thinking that maybe once they are really in my system I will be able to sleep all night. It really seems to me I am discussing a baby or small child who the parents are praying sleeps all night so they too can get the much needed full night of sleep. As I find this mildly amusing I mostly want to wake up feeling rested and refreshed! I fight irritability much of the time from fatigue. Poor Steven.
The things I think while lying awake are vast. Lists of things to do for the next day, does Steven's sister really hate me, do I really care (yes), how many people are actually going to be at the wedding and will this be irritating to Steven, will I have to have a deposit for the location I will be visiting after daylight? Mostly no answers and more questions come. How can I get my 18 year old daughter to pick up after herself and keep the bathroom door closed so that the dogs will not feast in the ever overflowing trash can? Is she deaf? Will hearing aids help? I mean, her mother has hearing loss and maybe she got it too?! The list is endless.
I will exercise today. It will improve my attitude. I have begun to dread bedtime and so in an effort to be more positive I will look forward to tonight. I will relax and enjoy the sleep I get. I will pray that I do get to see the back of my eyelids for a solid 8 hours!!